Dear You,
I woke up today and checked my phone and there was no message from you and then I remembered, you don't have my English number. Unless of course Lina has given it to you. We talked today but I forgot to ask her, we mostly talked about her upcoming trip here. Guess what: she's gonna take the bus to Southampton on her own! Yay! She said you met that morning for coffee. Don't worry, she didn't say anything else, which pretty much means you were in a bad shape and she didn't want to make me feel worse than I already do. Now, there's a fine example of how lies can be used to protect people! Why couldn't I be more like that, why do I have to say every single thing that pops into my head, no censorship, just out! Word vomit, that's a great expression to describe it!
Of course we both know Lina is rubbish at lying but I did appreaciate her trying to protect me, as usual, especially since she has problems of her own to deal with. I'm sure she hasn't told you about them but she has exams coming up, plus that boyfriend of hers makes her feel all jittery and I still don't know why. She says he's read a lot more things than she has (fyi that's not particularly hard) and sometimes he says something very smart and she feels like a complete idiot. I feel really sorry for her, this relationship sounds like a lot more pain than worth.
I think I'll ask her to give you my number but make it sound like it's her idea. Maybe you'll text me some angry incomprehensible message when you're drunk. Even an angry message sounds better than no message right now. I know you're not okay and you probably hate me for being right but I seriously doubt people hated Cassandra or Pythia for telling them what would happen and they foresaw things that are a lot worse than a failed relationship so you need to get over it.
As far as the other matter is concerned, to my horror, my feelings remain unchanged.This is a disaster. I keep listening to that stupid song God Help the Girl (the cover by Emily Browing, it's so much better!) and I feel it's been written for me! I mean, it's all there, come on! The madness, the boy, even the freaking insomnia! I could really use a friend right now, someone I can trust with this, someone like you. I can't talk to Immortality, she'll just make fun of me and I'm so not in the mood for that! Lina has her own boy crap, plus she'll also make fun of me. Kat is in Japan in those bio trials, so no way I'm gonna discuss such juvenile matters with her, she's become way too serious, she'll just give me that condescending look that reminds me of my father every time he opens a bill. Did I mention how much I hate you right now? I doubt I have any other people I can rely on so thanks for that!
I've got tons of drafts to read. Maybe that will help me forget him. I'm way too angry to write anything else. Did I mention eight is my favorite number? Well this chapter is pretty crappy so I'll just sign off and I hope you suffer, you selfish, stubborn jerk! I hate you!
I hate you!
Evey
I woke up today and checked my phone and there was no message from you and then I remembered, you don't have my English number. Unless of course Lina has given it to you. We talked today but I forgot to ask her, we mostly talked about her upcoming trip here. Guess what: she's gonna take the bus to Southampton on her own! Yay! She said you met that morning for coffee. Don't worry, she didn't say anything else, which pretty much means you were in a bad shape and she didn't want to make me feel worse than I already do. Now, there's a fine example of how lies can be used to protect people! Why couldn't I be more like that, why do I have to say every single thing that pops into my head, no censorship, just out! Word vomit, that's a great expression to describe it!
Of course we both know Lina is rubbish at lying but I did appreaciate her trying to protect me, as usual, especially since she has problems of her own to deal with. I'm sure she hasn't told you about them but she has exams coming up, plus that boyfriend of hers makes her feel all jittery and I still don't know why. She says he's read a lot more things than she has (fyi that's not particularly hard) and sometimes he says something very smart and she feels like a complete idiot. I feel really sorry for her, this relationship sounds like a lot more pain than worth.
I think I'll ask her to give you my number but make it sound like it's her idea. Maybe you'll text me some angry incomprehensible message when you're drunk. Even an angry message sounds better than no message right now. I know you're not okay and you probably hate me for being right but I seriously doubt people hated Cassandra or Pythia for telling them what would happen and they foresaw things that are a lot worse than a failed relationship so you need to get over it.
As far as the other matter is concerned, to my horror, my feelings remain unchanged.This is a disaster. I keep listening to that stupid song God Help the Girl (the cover by Emily Browing, it's so much better!) and I feel it's been written for me! I mean, it's all there, come on! The madness, the boy, even the freaking insomnia! I could really use a friend right now, someone I can trust with this, someone like you. I can't talk to Immortality, she'll just make fun of me and I'm so not in the mood for that! Lina has her own boy crap, plus she'll also make fun of me. Kat is in Japan in those bio trials, so no way I'm gonna discuss such juvenile matters with her, she's become way too serious, she'll just give me that condescending look that reminds me of my father every time he opens a bill. Did I mention how much I hate you right now? I doubt I have any other people I can rely on so thanks for that!
I've got tons of drafts to read. Maybe that will help me forget him. I'm way too angry to write anything else. Did I mention eight is my favorite number? Well this chapter is pretty crappy so I'll just sign off and I hope you suffer, you selfish, stubborn jerk! I hate you!
I hate you!
Evey
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