Dear You,
This is so funny. I'm sorry, I know I'm not supposed to laugh, I know you're in pain it's just that the mean girl inside me is slowly waking up. Don't worry, I won't let her take over. I would never, ever return to the person I once was. I thought everyone adored me when everyone hated me. When I was sick nobody called to see if I was okay. Naturally they called Lina, they tried to find out whether I was in rehab for drugs or an eating disorder (as if I could ever be such a cliche!!) but no one cared to see if I needed anything. Over the course of these two years I realized that I only had three real friends. Kat left for Japan, I drove Thana away because I was too proud to actually let her see what I had become and I was so mean to you, you had every right to hate me. Anyway, that's all in the past now.
So, I finally got that long awaited e-mail from your highness! You say you want me to return to Greece because you have no one to talk to and you feel like crap and I'm the only person you know you can confide in but where were you when I needed you? I'm sorry but as much as I love you I have to choose myself. I know that if I return to Greece now I'm gonna have to deal with all the mess I left behind and I really don't want that. I'm a runner remember? I'm sorry but if you want to see me you are gonna have to come here yourself.
I'm writing to you now under my skylight. I've turned on the star-shaped lights Isa bought me the other day and I feel so happy. This is my first Christmas away from my family. No matter where I was I always found a way to go back home on Christmas. I spoke with mama the other day I can tell she's sad. She's still trying to convince me to join them for Easter but I'll wait till we're done with classes and then return home. Summer is so much better in Greece, plus I might convince some of my friends here to join me.
I still have to write a letter to Santa but I've got a pretty good idea what I'm going to ask. My card hasn't arrived in Greece yet but I'm sure gramma will get it before Christmas. I don't know why she has this weird obsession with cards but I do hope she likes it.
Only six days till Lina's arrival. She's practically counting them now. I have to admit she's sort of pulled me into it as well. It will feel so good to finally talk to her from the other side of a coffee table! Plus she gives some pretty good advice and I do need some advice right now. I've got so much stuff to do I barely think of him, still as long as he's in my mind I'm failing in my task. I guess the fact that it's Christmas is not helping either. Anyway, I have faith in my abilities. Unlike you, I know when something can be done and when something is not meant to be. See how much I've grown since you last saw me? Despite everything I do wish you could come here, even if it was for a handful of days. I've missed you calling me Baby Girl and saying that no one will ever be good enough for me. I've sort of grown fond of these letters, me writing to you and you not listening to me. It's liberating. Anyway, I've got to sign off now. Work to do, things to write! I hope the next time I speak to you, you'll answer.
Love always,
Evey
This is so funny. I'm sorry, I know I'm not supposed to laugh, I know you're in pain it's just that the mean girl inside me is slowly waking up. Don't worry, I won't let her take over. I would never, ever return to the person I once was. I thought everyone adored me when everyone hated me. When I was sick nobody called to see if I was okay. Naturally they called Lina, they tried to find out whether I was in rehab for drugs or an eating disorder (as if I could ever be such a cliche!!) but no one cared to see if I needed anything. Over the course of these two years I realized that I only had three real friends. Kat left for Japan, I drove Thana away because I was too proud to actually let her see what I had become and I was so mean to you, you had every right to hate me. Anyway, that's all in the past now.
So, I finally got that long awaited e-mail from your highness! You say you want me to return to Greece because you have no one to talk to and you feel like crap and I'm the only person you know you can confide in but where were you when I needed you? I'm sorry but as much as I love you I have to choose myself. I know that if I return to Greece now I'm gonna have to deal with all the mess I left behind and I really don't want that. I'm a runner remember? I'm sorry but if you want to see me you are gonna have to come here yourself.
I'm writing to you now under my skylight. I've turned on the star-shaped lights Isa bought me the other day and I feel so happy. This is my first Christmas away from my family. No matter where I was I always found a way to go back home on Christmas. I spoke with mama the other day I can tell she's sad. She's still trying to convince me to join them for Easter but I'll wait till we're done with classes and then return home. Summer is so much better in Greece, plus I might convince some of my friends here to join me.
I still have to write a letter to Santa but I've got a pretty good idea what I'm going to ask. My card hasn't arrived in Greece yet but I'm sure gramma will get it before Christmas. I don't know why she has this weird obsession with cards but I do hope she likes it.
Only six days till Lina's arrival. She's practically counting them now. I have to admit she's sort of pulled me into it as well. It will feel so good to finally talk to her from the other side of a coffee table! Plus she gives some pretty good advice and I do need some advice right now. I've got so much stuff to do I barely think of him, still as long as he's in my mind I'm failing in my task. I guess the fact that it's Christmas is not helping either. Anyway, I have faith in my abilities. Unlike you, I know when something can be done and when something is not meant to be. See how much I've grown since you last saw me? Despite everything I do wish you could come here, even if it was for a handful of days. I've missed you calling me Baby Girl and saying that no one will ever be good enough for me. I've sort of grown fond of these letters, me writing to you and you not listening to me. It's liberating. Anyway, I've got to sign off now. Work to do, things to write! I hope the next time I speak to you, you'll answer.
Love always,
Evey
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